Or...

or maybe it's some childish need for attention. 

Love

I feel like I have just been longing for someone to love and someone to love me. It's the most ridiculous search.  Like who can love me enough and in the right way.  As if they all would love me, or be able to see me. It's all absurd, except that I'm lonely and other circumstances don't help the situation or the immidiate desperation of wanting to poor my heart out to someone who will sweep everything away.  

Yael Naim

I heard this song for the first time today, and I love it. 

New Soul lyrics

I'm a new soul
I came to this strange world
Hoping I could learn a bit 'bout how to give and take
But since I came here, felt the joy and the fear
Finding myself making every possible mistake

La, la, la, la (21x)
La, la, la, la (21x)

See I'm a young soul in this very strange world
Hoping I could learn a bit 'bout what is true and fake
But why all this hate? try to communicate
Finding trust and love is not always easy to make

La, la, la, la (21x)
La, la, la, la (21x)

This is a happy end 
Cause you don't understand
Everything you have done
Why's everything so wrong

This is a happy end
Come and give me your hand
I'll take you far away

I'm a new soul
I came to this strange world
Hoping I could learn a bit 'bout how to give and take
But since I came here, felt the joy and the fear
Finding myself making every possible mistake

New soul... (la, la, la, la,...) 
In this very strange world... 
Every possible mistake
Possible mistake
Every possible mistake
Mistakes, mistakes, mistakes...

Rachel

I got to talk to Rachael today....thank goodness...and I am going to call Liz tomorrow.. we haven't talked in a super long time. =(

My Portage boys sucked at basketball too tonight. blah!

Tired

This week has been so exhausting! I really want it to be over soon. 

Martine and Gabe

I drove into the city to see Martine and Gabe today! I love seeing people from Istanbul, it is great memories and it's great to not lose touch with friends.  I miss them already, but it was a great few hours. =) 

A day

Today was wonderful. I went to Torah study, which was really just a discussion about Jewish things and then I had coffee/breakfast with a little Jewish couple and another lady from Temple. It was so nice. =) Then I talked to Katie, from Turkey (or Seattle-ish area, but she's my Turkey Katie) and then tennis with the PHS boys. (I am still undefeated, but hopefully they will get better and I will stop winning.) Then we went to Katie and Rick's and saw Alex and Jackie and their new beautiful downstairs.  It was a good day. =) Busy, but good. 

Oy, things have been exhausting lately. 

http://www.nwi.com/articles/2009/02/10/news/porter/doc5cf5296b160e5d178625755900084a71.txt

In the paper...

Miriam

Miriam Webster and Mike Steinberg came to speak to my World History classes today.


Miriam is a Holocaust survivor from Poland.

Miriam's grandson, Miriam, Oded, Mike, and me!

My mom and I had our classes make 200th birthday cards for Lincoln! Happy Birthday ABE!!! (Also, thank you Katie and Cindy for the awesome Cricut letters!)

Golf

Today my dad, Rick, and I went to a heated driving range and hit golf balls...it was a nice change of pace in February. =) 

more...

Me with Paul Harris!!! Founder of Rotary!

Even Rotary has a penny pressing machine!!




Josh Nachman's (my cousin) cubicle!

Rotary International Tour!!

Our Chesterton-Porter Rotary Club plus the District Governor!

Same group with the Rotary Flags!

District Governor in the PRESIDENT'S desk!!

My handsome snow puppy!

Snow day!

What a (horrible) day...

Lots of bad things happened today, school was a mess and weird schedules, there was a blizzard and it took us more than a hour to drive home from work, which usually takes 15 minutes...

But the worst part is I really hurt an important friend, more than important really, but words can't describe it.  I know things will be fine, we both love each other very much, but I hurt her and it's not okay...

I'm sorry.

I won $50 in the Superbowl pool!