Sunday, April 11, 2010

Leaving...

Leaving the US and my family was really difficult this time. Sometimes there is so much excitement waiting a head that is easy to forget the pain of separation and leaving. But this time, I know exactly what I will be doing in Israel and I am a little burnt out. I know I have to write four 20 page papers and then three 8 page papers before June, and really, I don't want to do it. Do I want a master's degree? Yes, of course. But I am not so motivated anymore and it's taking its toll.

Also, my Hebrew teacher really stresses me out and it's not enjoyable this semester. So in combination of these things, I don't feel the thrill I did last time I arrived in Israel. I am excited to start thinking about what I am going to do next, but I am over this program, it's time to move on. (After I write these 100 pages.)

Of course, I already miss my family, and I can't imagine how big Jack is going to get while I am away. I know my parents miss me very much, but we all have to make choices, and I have a lot of things to think about for the coming August.

1 comment:

Jill said...

I'm praying for you Andrea! I know whatever decisions you have to make will be the right ones.

As for burn out - I hear you on that too. 100 pages is doable though. Space it out, eat chocolate and take breaks. Believe me, June will come faster than you think. :)

I love you!