Although anyone who really knows me, knows I am really sensitive, I shut off my feelings to other people for so long. I felt like an emtional void sometimes. I would say the feeling wasn't important or wasn't real, but now I want to feel. Now, I even want to feel the hunger. Because as I was told, all feelings are needs and no feeling should be denied.
Thursday, October 09, 2008
Today was rough, there is still an hour to go of fasting. But an hour is short really, relatively speaking, when I think about sunset to sunset. I have never really understood or felt the purpose of cleansing before or truly asking G-d for forgiveness and atonement. I think I have a very different perspective this year. I'm not sure if the actual day is important, I am sure I could do this anytime I wanted and G-d would accept it and pay attention. But I am grateful I get to fast, that I have to stop and look at my sins and see them and regret for them wholeheartedly. I get to ask G-d for forgive and want to never commit those sins against other people, myself, or G-d again.